The Gym and the Women's locker room.

I go to the gym during the week, sometines in the morning before work.  When I go in the morning, I sometimes shower at the gym and go straight to work. 

Let me back this up for a moment...  I grew up the only girl, middle child, with 2 brothers.   That upbringing set my stage for me to  always cover myself with a towel when I get out of the shower. 

Fast forward to today, I went to the gym this morning and ran on the treadmill, then pumped light weights for my biceps, afterwards I sat in the sauna for about a minute.  I got my toiletries out of the locker and took a shower.  There are six showers in the locker room and other women were occupying the other 5.  I feel so uncomfortable when I go in there but I do it anyway. 

Anyway, there is a clear panel on the shower curtain that allows you to see everybody.  I hate it.  So I throw a towel over the section I will be standing in so the other ladies don't eyeball me.  The crazy part about that is sometimes I'll just so happen to look around the towel and lo and behold some chick is looking in my direction.  I want to say "Bitch, Whatchu lookin at!" but I dont.   I know that all girls dont grow up covering everything when they shower especially girls who were raised with a bunch of girls.  

There is one shower in there, I believe its for people with disabilities, it has a hand held shower head, I love, love , love  hand held shower heads because they allow me to really cleanse my lower regions.  That shower also has a "shelf" to me but it's possibly a seat to others.  I place my duffle bag on it and when I'm done I can actually get dressed in there as well. 

After getting dressed today, as soon as I opened the curtain to walk out,  a big, brown girl was standing there in all her naked glory waiting on a shower.  I'm talking about tits hanging out,  crotch showing, everything.  It startled the shit out of me and of course made me feel extremely uncomfortable.  I screamed out loud in my head "wtf!!".     Not only that, other girls seem comfortable as well, but whenever I see tits hanging out or ass or crotch, I turn my eyes and head away from that sight quickly! 

I'm only comfortable in my naked awesomeness with my husband.  One day, I might be comfortable enough to walk around the locker room butt naked too. 

Why is kindness taken for weakness?

Why do agressive people think they can take advantage of nice people?  Yeah sure, I'm nice most of the time but when I'm rubbed the wrong way,  I slowly distance myself from that person, eventually to a point where I dont see them nor talk to them anymore. If I work with them... I'm forced to make snappy comments everytime they come at me the wrong way. It kills me how "surprised" they are with my reaction to their action. I dont act out and argue with the person because it's just easier for me to not be associated.    For the most part, I meet great people all the time but every so often, a "Miserable" will try me.  Why do you have to be mean to people to "gain respect" or is it ?